Thursday, July 17, 2014

but God....



abused repetitively as a child. rebellious and confused as a teen. left pregnant to raise a child, rejected and alone at 20. suicide attempts and cutting just to feel. i had no future. doctors said i was gonna die - twice. i was completely broken. numb. hateful. angry. lost.

but God, in His goodness and mercy, grabbed a hold of my heart and His love has changed me for life. His scandalous grace has transformed me into someone i never thought i would be and He continues to mold me into the woman He has designed me to be. He has given me abundant life and the life i live now is beyond what i ever dreamed or imagined.

my heart has experienced different seasons, some extremely painful, others full of joy. 

yet through all seasons, God has been so very faithful. He has healed me. He has set me free. He has given me a purpose and a destiny, not just for my own life, but for the lives of my children, my husband, my relatives, my friends and the people in my life that surround me.

Genesis 50:20 says "you intended to harm me, but GOD intended it for good, to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives."

that's one of my favoritest scriptures everrrrr. 

coz that's how God works. 

He takes the ugly, the broken, the pain of your past. or even the messy of your now. 

He heals. restores. redeems. forgives. transforms. 

then gives His love. freedom. grace. peace. joy. provision. mercy. 

in abundance

and He does that because He wants to use your life, the good and the bad, the great and the ugly. He wants to lavish His love upon you so you can share Christ's love to others so they can be set free as well.

don't let your past define you. don't let your pain imprison you. 

choose Christ. choose life. choose to be free so God can use your life and your story for the good, to accomplish the saving of many lives.

Sunday, April 6, 2014

do something different.

"if you want something different, DO something different. without change, progress is impossible" -Steve Maraboli

this quote right here is challenging me to the core.

speaking of core. i need to do more core exercises. well, i actually need to exercise. period.

and since we are talking about things i need to do, here are some of the things on my priority list:
  • spend time with my family.
  • spend time in the Word and in prayer. 
  • exercise.
  • work.
  • spend time writing again.
  • hang out with friends. and people in the community.
  • go to physical therapy for my injury.
  • do chores in the house.
  • watch reruns of walking dead and real housewives of atlanta

a lot of those things that are in my to-do list involves TIME. which  means i need to eliminate "time-suckers" from my life. time-suckers are the things i do that take up a lot of time but end up being quite useless.

"we all have the same 24 hours in the day....we must choose to spend those hours wisely"

honestly...i don't choose my hours wisely.

and my number one time-sucker is social media. and the number one social media that seems to take up all my time is facebook. i know, who still goes on facebook right? i do! because i moved to a different state (in an island in the middle of the pacific ocean), FB is one of the few ways so i can still get in touch with relatives and friends in the mainland (a.k.a. continental US), the philippines and everywhere else around the world.

but let me be honest here.... i don't really use FB to communicate with relatives and friends. i mostly just
      scroll.....
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                                      scroll.....
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                                                                       down....

and read statuses that hardly mean anything to me. i mean there is the occasional prayer request and the mom's club announcements and important private messages. but honestly... it's RARE that i read something that does me any good. aaaaaaaand i waste so much of my time taking those damn online quizzes and surveys (like: which walking dead character are you?...btw i got daryl dixon coz im quite the bad***)

so 
must 
part 
ways
with 
this
time-sucker
of
mine.
(for now)   

i'm gonna begin to use the time i spend on FB to do things that are important for me in this season. 

"without change, progress is impossible"

i am hoping that choosing to make these changes will result in much progress! and if anything, then at least it buys me more time to nap and rest when the baby is napping! LOL so adios for now FB!

i will still be keeping my instagram, twitter, email, blog if you need me. at least there, i wont get suckered into taking the stupid quizzes LOL! there is good old fashion email or a text/call. holla at me if you need me! 

Monday, March 31, 2014

He who holds the nations holds your heart as well.




For those who are going through a  rough season, here is a reminder to encourage you about how BIG our God is... 

"For all the nations of the world are but a drop in the bucket. They are nothing more than dust on the scales. He picks up the whole earth as though it were a grain of sand." [isaiah 40:15-15] 

don't lose heart. He who holds the nations in the palm of His hand holds your heart as well. He will carry you through every season that you face. #NorthShoreDiaries #SoulFood #iMissWritingSometimes ;)