Sunday, April 6, 2014

do something different.

"if you want something different, DO something different. without change, progress is impossible" -Steve Maraboli

this quote right here is challenging me to the core.

speaking of core. i need to do more core exercises. well, i actually need to exercise. period.

and since we are talking about things i need to do, here are some of the things on my priority list:
  • spend time with my family.
  • spend time in the Word and in prayer. 
  • exercise.
  • work.
  • spend time writing again.
  • hang out with friends. and people in the community.
  • go to physical therapy for my injury.
  • do chores in the house.
  • watch reruns of walking dead and real housewives of atlanta

a lot of those things that are in my to-do list involves TIME. which  means i need to eliminate "time-suckers" from my life. time-suckers are the things i do that take up a lot of time but end up being quite useless.

"we all have the same 24 hours in the day....we must choose to spend those hours wisely"

honestly...i don't choose my hours wisely.

and my number one time-sucker is social media. and the number one social media that seems to take up all my time is facebook. i know, who still goes on facebook right? i do! because i moved to a different state (in an island in the middle of the pacific ocean), FB is one of the few ways so i can still get in touch with relatives and friends in the mainland (a.k.a. continental US), the philippines and everywhere else around the world.

but let me be honest here.... i don't really use FB to communicate with relatives and friends. i mostly just



and read statuses that hardly mean anything to me. i mean there is the occasional prayer request and the mom's club announcements and important private messages. but honestly... it's RARE that i read something that does me any good. aaaaaaaand i waste so much of my time taking those damn online quizzes and surveys (like: which walking dead character are you?...btw i got daryl dixon coz im quite the bad***)

(for now)   

i'm gonna begin to use the time i spend on FB to do things that are important for me in this season. 

"without change, progress is impossible"

i am hoping that choosing to make these changes will result in much progress! and if anything, then at least it buys me more time to nap and rest when the baby is napping! LOL so adios for now FB!

i will still be keeping my instagram, twitter, email, blog if you need me. at least there, i wont get suckered into taking the stupid quizzes LOL! there is good old fashion email or a text/call. holla at me if you need me! 

Monday, March 31, 2014

He who holds the nations holds your heart as well.

For those who are going through a  rough season, here is a reminder to encourage you about how BIG our God is... 

"For all the nations of the world are but a drop in the bucket. They are nothing more than dust on the scales. He picks up the whole earth as though it were a grain of sand." [isaiah 40:15-15] 

don't lose heart. He who holds the nations in the palm of His hand holds your heart as well. He will carry you through every season that you face. #NorthShoreDiaries #SoulFood #iMissWritingSometimes ;) 

Saturday, February 22, 2014

sweating, speaking and waiting 13 years for a dream to be fulfilled.

last night, i had the honor of sharing my testimony to a handful of teenagers at a youth group. to say that i was nervous is an understatement. and it's not just because of my stupid fear of public speaking. i've shared my testimony numerous times and i still get scared. every. single. time.

but i was uber-uber-nervous because i knew that a VERY IMPORTANT PERSON would be sitting in the audience listening to me. and that person just happens to mean the whole world to me. 

it was the first time i shared my testimony with my son as part of the audience.

i mean he has heard this story before, but it was always on a one-on-one basis. for 13 years, i waited for this chance to be able to share my testimony with his face sitting in the audience, looking right back at me.

i told my story about my sinful past - how i was sexually and physically abused and how it was tolerated by my parents in our home for years.

i shared about my choice to live a wayward and rebellious life as a teenager, filled with debauchery, relationships and partying, and how that lifestyle ended up with me getting pregnant and how his biological father chose to leave us.  

i talked about how having my son played a vital role in turning my life around. how God chased me down and lavished me with His love despite of my sin and messy past and invited me to receive His forgiveness and grace.

i shared about the journey of my healing and how God turned my life completely around and transformed me - coming from a place of complete brokenness to a place of becoming more whole, and the power of God to give the ability to forgive and restore broken relationships.

i also gave short snippet of my husband's story, how he lived a life that was completely opposite of mine. how he chose to live a life of following God and living a pure life. for 35 years he waited. 5 more years and he would have been the 40 year old virgin and how God honored the season of time that he waited and eventually answered the desire of his heart to have a wife and a family.

lastly, i talked about how God was able to redeem my past and give me purpose for my pain and my life. and how God is allowing me and our family to live a life that's beyond what we've even imagined or hoped for.

i wish i shared it that eloquently. but i didn't.  i stuttered. my thoughts were scattered. and i sweat a LOT. like "running on the treadmill, dripping down my face kind of sweat". i know - it's gross. and it happens every time i speak in public. UBER FAIL! but i am still joyful!

coz last night, i can say that a long time dream of mine was realized.
and it took 13 years in the making.

psalm 78:4 says "we will tell the next generation the praiseworthy deeds of the LORD, his power and the wonders he has done." and i was able to do exactly that. i shared about God's praiseworthy deeds, His power and His wonders. it's always an honor when God opens the door for me to share my story to others, especially the next generation (even if i get all nervous and sweaty and scared). but it's extra special because my long time dream was to share God's power to MY next generation.

the beautiful thing about this is: as my story continues to unfold, my son's  own story and testimony is unfolding as well. and because he saw first hand what God's power of grace and forgiveness can do, i have seen it impact his life in such a powerful way that he holds no grudges towards his grandparents or even his biological father [read a part of his story here]

children are a heritage from the Lord, offspring a reward from Him. Like arrows in the hands of a warrior are children born in one's youth. blessed is the [wo]man whose quiver is full of them. - psalm 127:3-5

seeing him sitting there looking at me reminded me to continue to be wise with how i am choosing to build, because that will be the legacy that i will leave behind. having him there reminded me that he is an arrow, a weapon God has put in my hand. and one day he will be launched further than i will ever go. knowing that reminds me to continue to build and live my life in such a way so that my ceiling will one day be their floor to stand on.

i cannot wait for the day when another dream of mine is realized... when it will be me sitting in the audience listening to him share his testimony as he tells others about the praiseworthy deeds, power and wonders of God.

John leading worship. Me sharing my testimony. Christian dominating at Kendama. and Karielle being her cute ms. aloha self.! 
Seriously, God has extremely blessed me beyond what i've hoped for or imagined! I have a delightful inheritance! [psalm 16]